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[twinsanity]

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Is there a way to make yourself stop thinking about someone that obviously isn't worth your time?

I feel like I've done everything I can to deal with the situation, so it's not like business is unfinished. And before you suggest forgiveness or something stupid like that, it isn't an option after what this person did, so don't bother. I just can't let this go for whatever reason and it's getting inconvenient and stupid and I'd rather not deal with it anymore, but deciding that you're not going to think about something is a waste of time for obvious reasons.

I don't care if I never stop hating them. I just want to stop thinking about it, and if I could cut out whatever part of my brain is responsible for that, I would.


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[Alfred hasn't been staying in the Goldenrod base for some time, having grown rather bored with it in terms of living arrangements (and besides, having his own place was far more fun in terms of interior decorating, if by "fun" we all understand he means that he's been taking time to make the place look like he may in fact be possessed by demons and is building some sort of really childish lair of the damned); that doesn't mean he won't come back once in a while, however, especially when he's in the mood to destroy things that aren't acceptable to destroy in public.

Like his Pinsir. He's enjoying setting that on fire today.

There's no immediately obvious point to it, nor is it proper training. It's just general "I want to set this thing on fire and make it scream like hell, so I will," and he knows better than to think this will be acceptable anywhere outside. So he's in one of the training arenas, just using his Rapidash, Jubilee, to burn the hell out of it.

He wastes a couple of revives on it so he can repeat the experience; he's spent the entire process in silence, though he's had his hand clamped over his mouth almost the entire time and he's shaking a bit, and after a while his eyes had slid closed. He sort of hates himself for all of that - he's better than that and he knows it - but after a while it stops bothering him and starts feeling cathartic, and when he opens his eyes again they're bright but he's generally okay, and he recalls both the wretched thing he's been burning and Jubilee, and he's pretty sure he can get on with his day now that whatever that was has been taken care of.]

Comments

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[konpeitoqueen]

Become less pathetic.

You're a noble, right? It shouldn't be too hard for you. ｡◕‿◕｡

[...Despite the fact Saionji literally does the same thing to someone else...]

[twinsanity]

Well, normally it wouldn't be, if it were just preoccupation. This particular problem is "this person deserves to have a lot of revenge taken on them, and I can't physically get any more revenge than I have already."

Surely you understand that sort of preoccupation.

[konpeitoqueen]

If you literally can't do anything more, just forget about them! When someone is such a piece of low-life scum that they deserve so much punishment... they shouldn't be worth taking up your thoughts if you can't get to them. There's nothing much else to do then to block them out with willpower.

Of course, if an opportunity does present itself, then hop right to it. You're right at one thing- sometimes, forgiveness just isn't an option.

[twinsanity]

I've already done something about it back home, believe me. I've never been one for all this "unconditional love and acceptance" nonsense that people tend to throw around, regardless of who it is that's causing the issue. I can only think of one person I know that might deserve that, but it's not a luxury I extend to anyone else.

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[aufsassig]

[Well, someone's a hot mess of emotions, isn't he?

All things considered, it'd be impossible to ignore the shrieking of that poor damn oversized bug...thing, even without the ability to tune in to its mental anguish on top of it. But even if it wasn't a nigh-impossible task, Schuldig probably would've ended up watching anyway, just because there's something undeniably fascinating in a sort of aquarium-like way about a grown man quivering and grabbing his mouth as he just burns and burns and burns some thing that, by all rules of this world they're in, ought to be under his protection and care — and more importantly, given the fact that it's a five-foot bug with a fucking guillotine on its head, that he's doing it to something that could snap him in half in about two seconds flat, and yet it's just sitting there screaming and taking it.

This, Schuldig reflects, is the real beauty of the human condition. It's poetry in motion.

(The Pokemon he's brought down to the arena with him today, however, are understandably anxious and apprehensive as hell about all this — hopefully the intent way their trainer is watching the spectacle doesn't mean he's getting ideas and taking notes.)

And so, once things die down (morbid pun intended), Schuldig cocks his head and applauds lightly, more to attract the pyromaniac's attention than anything else.]

You look like you could use a cigarette after that one.

[twinsanity]

[Oh. Well. Hello there. He has no idea what's wrong with your hair but he's pretty sure it's some sort of crime against humanity; however, it's almost balanced out by the lack of bitching at him for torching the shit out of his Pokémon for no real reason, so he's just going to have half a shred of tact for once and not say anything.

He's been told that sort of thing before - you look like you could use a smoke, you could probably use a drink after that - almost entirely by people in uni who had no idea what they were talking about, and he doubts this one is much different; he looks around the right age even. But eh. We'll see where it goes, if anywhere.]

I've handled worse than that, and it's a filthy habit besides.

[aufsassig]

Not the kind of cigarette I meant.

[He offers a lazy grin, pushing off from the wall and wandering over toward the guy as behind him, a Haunter begins emerging from its previous invisibility and follows along.]

What's the matter, couldn't find a big enough magnifying glass?

[twinsanity]

[Oh, excuse you.]

How I choose to punish my Pokémon is absolutely none of your business, last I checked.

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[awesmazings]

[Jimmy why are you doing this think about how it went last time.]

Maybe you can try to find something to get your mind off them? Some big project or something that takes a lot of time and energy, so afterwards you're too tired or too busy to be really thinking about a whole lot.

[twinsanity]

[Oh, look, it's the little boy from Hell again.]

That's usually what I end up doing; it usually works, too, I won't try to claim that it doesn't. It's just irksome to have to go do sometimes.

[awesmazings]

I understand. I think. But you gotta do what you gotta do sometimes, yeah?

[artfuldestruction]

[Kato had decided to leave the labs behind today and get in a bit of training while things were going slowly; he purses his lips slightly when he hears that the field is already occupied - not that he expected any different, but he's not exactly feeling sociable today. However, once he sets eyes on what is actually happening on there, he starts feeling a little more chatty. Approaching Alfred, he stands on the side of the field, arms crossed and turning a Pokeball in his fingers. How very curious.] 

I take it you're not very impressed with that creature. 

[Ugh, is there any way to get it to stop making that horrid noise?]

[twinsanity]

[He likes causing it to make that horrid noise, actually, the horrid noise is sort of the point, so even if there was he probably wouldn't utilize it...

That said, however, Kato's presence jerks him out of his thoughts rather hard, and he shakes his head a bit as though trying to compose himself before he answers.]

I...no, not really. To put it lightly.

[artfuldestruction]

Mhmm.

[Ew.

Well, regardless, Kato remains silent for a moment as he watches the Pinsir burn, wrinkling his nose slightly. The smell isn't very pleasant, after all. Turning back to face Alfred, he stares at him, tilting his head slightly so the light flashes across his glasses.]

Have we met, by the way? You look very familiar.

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[majorcrotchgrab]

Try distracting yourself with other things?

[twinsanity]

Here's an idea that no one in this place seems to have grasped: if it's an obvious solution to you, it's probably already occurred to me.

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[majorcrotchgrab]

But you see? I've successfully distracted you, even if it was for a second.

In all seriousness though, if they're almost always in your thoughts, maybe things aren't as wrapped up as you claim them to be?

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[voidedrogue]

nope
time makes 'em fade maybe
but if youre stuck on it youre prob gonna be stuck on it for a while
aside from thinkin bout other shit instead theres not much you can do cept deal w/ it i guess
sorry you got a loser on the brain man

[ Such advice, Roxy, really ground-breaking here. ]

[twinsanity]

[Weirdly enough he prefers "You can't do anything about it, so deal with it and it'll go away eventually" over the same insipid advice over and over again, because at least that makes sense and is scanning as far less patronizing to him, so...]

Well, at least I'm used to just dealing with things like that on my own, I suppose. It's not ideal but it's possible.

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[shest]

Is this someone that is here or someone you know from your own world that isn't?

If revenge is getting boring or impossible I'd say that a new strategy is in order. Sometimes a person has to bide his time in order to find a new opportunity. That or enough time passes that you're not quite so fixated on whoever is bothering you.

Plans can take years to come to fruition, but in my experience it's worthwhile

[twinsanity]

[Oh, well, look at that. Someone who doesn't air their depravity all over the network. Alfred, take some fucking lessons.]

It's someone I know from my own world that isn't, actually. So there's not much to be done about it now and I know that, but it doesn't make dealing with it any less horrid.

[shest]

No, it wouldn't.

But this is someone who isn't here and that means that you can't very well carry out violent revenge. Maybe they'll show up, but you shouldn't count on that.

You could always take it out on someone here. One of those idiots who stand around waiting to challenge strangers to battle, maybe.

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[glaciates]

I wish I had an answer to that. It's something I've been struggling with as well, though replace "someone" with "something."

The way I've been countering it is to focus on something else, but it's not always going to work. I try to focus on one thing to the exclusion of everything else, but that's not exactly the healthiest way to handle something like this. It works sometimes, but there has to be a better way.

If you find a better answer, I'd be interested in hearing it.

[twinsanity]

Oh, come on. Are you just going to keep being dodgy about what the "thing" is? Because if you want advice I'm hardly going to give it to you if I don't know that it'll apply. That's just wasting time for both of us.

[glaciates]

I'd really rather not get into it. It's personal. Besides, you don't need to know exactly what it is to give general advice.

[............or do you is this a social thing he doesn't understand???]