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Sixty metres...??

[good fucking lord are you some sort of beastmaster or]

And why are you telling me this?

You wanted to know how I managed to kill that many people.

_[or.]

I'm taking a chance and trusting you with this.

[...Bert, he isn't some sort of clairvoyant, he's going to take a moment to catch up.]

So you caused this. Somehow.

_{[It's hard for him to talk about :c]}

Because|

_{[Give him a minute here, this is the part he was afraid of.]}

because im the one who kicked the wall.

[...As he'd thought, in some ways. Not necessarily that Bertholt was one of these...Titan things, but since he'd heard about them the running suspicion Alfred has been operating under is that they were humans of some sort. Either due to some sort of controlled mutation that would allow shifting forms - the Veronica virus, if Alexia is correct (and she's always correct) is supposed to allow that, isn't it? Or perhaps an uncontrolled one that got out of hand; maybe they were all like Nosferatu. It was difficult to tell, really.

Either way, he isn't really judgmental about it; just...thinking.]

The company I own part of is responsible for the creation of bio-organic weaponry, as I said. There was an outbreak that's wiped out a good amount of humanity; it basically rendered them animated corpses. Zombies, really.

I told you that I worked for a military training facility and a maximum-security prison; what I didn't tell you was that I would run "games" once in a while. When I was bored, or when my sister wanted to. I would put people in a maze I'd built and let some of those mutated creatures I've told you about loose inside, and I would see how long it took them to die. I called it the Kill Room; I'd usually use the prisoners, because I figured no one would miss them.

The human experimentation I told you about earlier was something my sister and I were doing by the time we were nine years old. By the time we were ten, we found out some things that our father had lied to us about; we injected him with a virus as "punishment." It was my sister's idea; I mostly stood guard while she did it. He's currently locked up in the lower levels of my laboratories back home.

My office is directly over the room he's locked up in; I can hear him screaming and hitting the back of his head against the wall sometimes. I don't do anything to discourage it, and I've never tried to change locations. I guess it's because I don't want to forget.

I'm not going to ask you for your reasons because it's none of my business, and I'm not telling you this because I want to get into some sort of competition about who's more awful between us. It's mostly because you're trusting me with your secrets, so you might as well have some of mine; it doesn't feel fair, otherwise.

_{[That... went better than he thought it would. Is it a terrible thing to know? Yes, but Bertholt understands where he's coming from. He's not sure who else could understand (aside from Alfred's own sister of course). And yet despite everything he's reading, his opinion doesn't change.]}

As horrible as that all sounds, I'm not judging you. It's not really my place to begin with considering I just told you what I did. To be honest, I actually...

I respect you more than I did before. I really, really do. For anyone to do that for so long, it's amazing that you're still you. I'm kind of curious about one thing though;

Do you ever regret it?

I don't really have much to say about the outbreaks, as those were always so far away from me and my jurisdiction that I couldn't possibly be held responsible anyway.

I don't really feel sorry about the games; they were all prisoners who were never going to get off the island alive. They were just going to die anyway; if anything I kept them from being locked up on that godforsaken rock longer than necessary, and I wasn't wasting resources on them.

What happened to my father, though...

[Hmmm.]

I don't know. I'm not exactly sorry for doing it, but I don't like that it came to that, and if it could have been done another way I would have preferred that. I don't know how to describe it very well - I feel that he deserved it, but I don't like it.

I'd rather be put out of my misery if I was stuck in prison for the rest of my life too, but I don't think I'd want to go out like that. It sounds like it'd be painful but that probably depends on what kind of monsters you put in with them I think.

_{[It'd still be better than being tortured and experimented on, assuming he wasn't killed outright.]}

He's your dad though so I think it's natural to not like it. You and your sister are strong people for being able to handle all of it.

It's...complicated, I suppose.

What about you - from the sound of it, you regret what you did...?

It's okay.

Yeah. I'll always regret it.

Is that why you decided to be a soldier?

Yes and no. We had a mission to infiltrate humanity and find something, but I really did enjoy the time I spent as a soldier.

Did you ever find it?

Yeah. We weren't able to capture it though. That was right before I turned up here.

Well, that's unfortunate.

[...]

Do you prefer it here, as opposed to back home?

Despite missing Reiner and Annie, yeah. It's...

It's peaceful here for the most part. Even though I'm one of them, I still have to worry about getting eaten. I don't have to worry about needing a place to sleep or going hungry too, not to mention I've discovered a bunch of new things to try. It's not home-home, but it's close.

What about you?

Well, it's a little boring here, and I don't have my weapons so that's a little grating; I have a large gun collection back home, among other large-artillery weapons and vehicles like tanks and what have you. And of all things, I miss my jets.

I also have business to attend to whenever I'm returned home - it's something I've been looking forward to for quite some time, and it's incredibly important.

But...I don't know. If time really doesn't pass for us back home - as they like to claim it doesn't - then maybe I wouldn't mind staying. For quite some time, even.

If you ever find anything like that maybe you could show me how they worked. We never had much in terms of firearms or heavy artillery, and in return if I ever find a set of 3DMG from my world I could show you that. I came here with the harness for it still on my body but everything else was gone.

I understand.

If it really is, how long would you want to stay for?

3DMG...?

Well, whatever it is, I'd like that.

[...the last part of that, though. Good lord.]

And I'm not sure. If Alexia were here with me the entire time, I'd be fine staying here indefinitely - or as long as she wanted to, anyway.

...Alexia is my sister, by the way.

Three-Dimensional Maneuver Gear. It's what we use against the other Titans. I had it for a little while when we were all in that castle but I nearly blacked out after I used it for too long, so I don't know what happened with that.

Do you think I could meet her if she ever shows up? She seems like she'd be okay just from the way you talk about her.

That does sound interesting, actually.

As for Alexia, I think you would like her, because everyone likes her. She's supposed to be perfect, and she is.

It's harder than it'll seem, believe me.

It must be nice having a sister like that.

Well, if nothing else I'm sure you'll be able to demonstrate.

...And it is, really. Sometimes people get grating about it, but that's hardly her fault. Again, just don't try dating her and we'll be fine.

Maybe. It'd be really hard to pull off without the entire set but I still have the harness so at the very least I can show you that.

You don't have to worry about any of that though. I promise.

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