008. [Text / Action for Goldenrod Rocket Base]

[twinsanity]

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Is there a way to make yourself stop thinking about someone that obviously isn't worth your time?

I feel like I've done everything I can to deal with the situation, so it's not like business is unfinished. And before you suggest forgiveness or something stupid like that, it isn't an option after what this person did, so don't bother. I just can't let this go for whatever reason and it's getting inconvenient and stupid and I'd rather not deal with it anymore, but deciding that you're not going to think about something is a waste of time for obvious reasons.

I don't care if I never stop hating them. I just want to stop thinking about it, and if I could cut out whatever part of my brain is responsible for that, I would.


[ACTION]

[Alfred hasn't been staying in the Goldenrod base for some time, having grown rather bored with it in terms of living arrangements (and besides, having his own place was far more fun in terms of interior decorating, if by "fun" we all understand he means that he's been taking time to make the place look like he may in fact be possessed by demons and is building some sort of really childish lair of the damned); that doesn't mean he won't come back once in a while, however, especially when he's in the mood to destroy things that aren't acceptable to destroy in public.

Like his Pinsir. He's enjoying setting that on fire today.

There's no immediately obvious point to it, nor is it proper training. It's just general "I want to set this thing on fire and make it scream like hell, so I will," and he knows better than to think this will be acceptable anywhere outside. So he's in one of the training arenas, just using his Rapidash, Jubilee, to burn the hell out of it.

He wastes a couple of revives on it so he can repeat the experience; he's spent the entire process in silence, though he's had his hand clamped over his mouth almost the entire time and he's shaking a bit, and after a while his eyes had slid closed. He sort of hates himself for all of that - he's better than that and he knows it - but after a while it stops bothering him and starts feeling cathartic, and when he opens his eyes again they're bright but he's generally okay, and he recalls both the wretched thing he's been burning and Jubilee, and he's pretty sure he can get on with his day now that whatever that was has been taken care of.]

Comments

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[konpeitoqueen]

Become less pathetic.

You're a noble, right? It shouldn't be too hard for you. ｡◕‿◕｡

[...Despite the fact Saionji literally does the same thing to someone else...]

[twinsanity]

Well, normally it wouldn't be, if it were just preoccupation. This particular problem is "this person deserves to have a lot of revenge taken on them, and I can't physically get any more revenge than I have already."

Surely you understand that sort of preoccupation.

[konpeitoqueen]

If you literally can't do anything more, just forget about them! When someone is such a piece of low-life scum that they deserve so much punishment... they shouldn't be worth taking up your thoughts if you can't get to them. There's nothing much else to do then to block them out with willpower.

Of course, if an opportunity does present itself, then hop right to it. You're right at one thing- sometimes, forgiveness just isn't an option.

[twinsanity]

I've already done something about it back home, believe me. I've never been one for all this "unconditional love and acceptance" nonsense that people tend to throw around, regardless of who it is that's causing the issue. I can only think of one person I know that might deserve that, but it's not a luxury I extend to anyone else.

[konpeitoqueen]

Good. So you do seem to have some degree of sense, for a Westerner.

[is she still doing this

...yeah]

I'm almost curious, though! What did they do to you?

[twinsanity]

I don't see why that is any of your business, but since you said you understand the sentiment, presumably you had someone screw you.

You first, if you're that curious.

[konpeitoqueen]

[...She kinda made it incredibly obvious when she arrived, hasn't she? It still makes her reluctant to say it outright to a stranger, though. She barely ever actually talks about herself to people she doesn't know.]

Why don't you ask my classmates? They'll tell you allll about it.

[twinsanity]

Because I don't care enough. I just don't believe in handing out information for free.

[konpeitoqueen]

[...what the fuck do you mean you don't care enough you rude piece of- EVERYONE SHOULD CARE ABOUT HER]

Nevermind, then. Huh, looks like I couldn't weasel it out of you.

[twinsanity]

[sorry you're insignificant in the scheme of things, honey]

Suit yourself, really. It's not a great loss to me either way, and I rather like keeping things to myself besides.